An Avid Observer

You're the only one who can leave me completely breathless even when there's nothing but silence between us. It's like I can lay beside you and we not say a single word and still I have the best time.

Sometimes I feel like no one cares about me, and sometimes I feel like I'm invisible... Am I? No one knows what I really want ... No one knows what I am thinking about ... I need someone to give me strength to go on... I hope someone can hold my hands and tell me "you are not alone" =)

Have a lot to say words are at the bay they  aren't  helping me like I couldn't see thee. 

I am on the ceiling I am sensing but the pain  isn't  healing because She's not here or perhaps I am not there. You're like dying rose inside me Yet you  aren't  close it's all about thee. Should I go away??? forgetting the past... that I  don't  think ever easily last So , It's time to sit idle abiding the twinge of bristly needle

My MOM asks what happen to me. i seem to be altered! It’s nothing MOM You shouldn’t be troubled. SHE looks at my face says there is wrong, more or less i try to evade her But how can i deceive ever? SHE discovers, i might have a fight SHE rains with me, leaves me to do the right She always makes a plea. How can SHE best realize me? SHE loves me more than i feel affection for the one When she warms me with her adore i want to be there more and more But still i have tenderness for the one i have a weakness She is not happy with my insane, orders me to act sane. i try my best to do but i know it’s not easy too “Let me go mom” She says i m a gift for home. “You shouldn’t lose sleep” You have to darken all those grief” Don’t worry you don’t deserve But i have got my spirit reserved All these time will fade away But mom what if i passed away “You are so obstinate” Yes love made me obsolete “Bravo! You should calm down” ...

Again the same thing you can imagine, I think you can't infer because it's a personal matter So, let me tell you, what I went through. It happens often when I see, the hankering of that inside me, I think I am puzzling to you but that's true, I cant let, know you today, I found something inside me yet again what I am dying to gain. I m living to win her, because  I am dying to forget her.