Today, I felt somehow down to myself. A sense of regret inside me. It’s not accurately being repentant but it is the worst feeling caused by not having a good luck. Since, I was not born with the silver spoon in my mouth it’s obvious. I am not moneyed. I wish I would have been a millionaire. Being millionaire or richy means a lot and makes different too. Today I lacked something that would have been fulfilled if I were rich. I missed to upload my reaction, the fresh feeling. If only I would have a laptop or any latest electronic gadgets then it would have been possible to happen.
The sight was in front of me. I was thrashed that I thought it would be better to just follow. “Keep following buddy. Don’t try to walk ahead” I ordered to myself. So did I. I kept myself following the shadow. It was a bit ironical as well for me. I m always followed by my own shadow and in the same way others are followed too but I was running behind without any sound, being soundless someone else’s shadow, the darkness created by the flesh but it was guiding me. Sometimes the black dark also leads you to the point, the target, the destination no matters they are reliable or not. I let myself go…
After having a not so good day, I was getting back. I was taking myself out of the chaotic environment of the city. The place which is supposed to be the symbol of modernization for my country where you can get everything on sell from the nook and corner of the globe. The area has been always new for me and so its name suggests. It is impressively crowded from the very beginning of the day. Many of them say that the city never sleeps but whenever I m there I always feel sleepy and hurry myself to get into my bed. Perhaps I don’t like being there. Today the scene was different. My eyes were wide open. I was seeing through the people. I was a curious pedestrian, looking ahead. At first I moved so close being unknown but soon I maintained a distance of 10-15 meter. It was necessity at that time because nothing looked familiar and everything was trembling together with my heart.
It was the time when I saw you. Yes, I saw you. Just have a keen look. I saw you can be I was you as well by just a slight change of spell of ‘Saw’ and “Was” respectively. Isn’t it funny? Might not be for you all. I hope you grabbed it. I was walking as usual carrying a heavy head. I saw you there. You were with your friend who also knows me. You were in your black yet shining my world. The same bag and just measuring the distance of the road by your beautiful feet covered under a well suited sandal like it is only made to protect you from touching you the ground. Your feet may get dirty and scratched walking on the wrong floor. Please value yourself. You are precious to me and so is your health and happiness. If I don’t care for you then who else would do. Oh! Yeah I saw you. You were there. Your hair not combed again but roughly tightened like they are left to breathe and enjoy the fragrance coming out of you. The black magic was in front of me and I was getting captivated. The black magic was wrapped in black attire and the redolence also had the property of black magic. Thus, I thought it would be better to be far-flung. I have no idea that how my thought came into being thought today. It never worked. It was always biased. It was dominated whenever I had to use it. This is all my thought which turned you into my habit through a long process. First, I perceived you as a thought in my head and soon you were welcomed as feeling. That was not enough for you because then you entered into me as an attitude .No sooner you penetrated being my attitude, my spectacle I started watching the world through you. You worked as my looking glass, always guiding me. I couldn’t work without you. I was zilch. Accordingly, you turned to be my habit. You were my habit, my custom, my ritual, my routine and my concern. Hey did I say “You were”? Sorry, I meant to say you are and you will be.
I saw you. I saw you there with your friend. You were right ahead of me as usual. You were going away and I was following you but this time I didn’t stop you. I let you go away and kept watching you going away from me. I didn’t have courage to stop you. What I could do was just seeing you walking away. You got a call, didn’t you? You talked on the phone. And all of sudden you took a brake and stood outside a shop. When you turned around I thought your stunning eyes got the presence of me but thank god my heart got the normal beat. Your eyes failed to see me because they were never inquisitive for me. You moved from there. I was late. You already left and the distance between me and you were getting thicker as usual. I could have caught you but I inserted myself in the same shop just to query why you were there.
“
Hi, sister! Were those two girls in your shop?” I asked being gracious. “Whom you talking about?” she asked me instead. “Oh, yes! They were” she answered with a smile as if she knew everything and my intention too. I replied with the smile too because they were something more left for her to respond.
“And what they were looking for?” I put another query. She opened her mouth with another blush – “They were looking for a sandal”. It was again black. I thanked her and ran. But it was really late. She was lost in the crowd. I hoped that I would get another sight of her when we both would depart to our destination. My senses couldn’t sense her thereafter. I gave stare at almost everywhere and on every face but it was of no use.
She was gone. Perhaps she chose another way since she had another place to go. She had another end. We don’t walk the same way anymore. We don’t share the same lane now. We have turned out to be railway track, going miles together yet never meeting each other and never crossing. I’d love to cross the way you lie. I‘d be glad if I can cross the lines already created. I m well acquainted that there will be accident sooner or later and nothing will get hurt. My body will be in the same casing except my heart which may be dislodged once again. I am ready to be struck for the cause that I want to place my heart once more in the same rest.
The sight was in front of me. I was thrashed that I thought it would be better to just follow. “Keep following buddy. Don’t try to walk ahead” I ordered to myself. So did I. I kept myself following the shadow. It was a bit ironical as well for me. I m always followed by my own shadow and in the same way others are followed too but I was running behind without any sound, being soundless someone else’s shadow, the darkness created by the flesh but it was guiding me. Sometimes the black dark also leads you to the point, the target, the destination no matters they are reliable or not. I let myself go…
After having a not so good day, I was getting back. I was taking myself out of the chaotic environment of the city. The place which is supposed to be the symbol of modernization for my country where you can get everything on sell from the nook and corner of the globe. The area has been always new for me and so its name suggests. It is impressively crowded from the very beginning of the day. Many of them say that the city never sleeps but whenever I m there I always feel sleepy and hurry myself to get into my bed. Perhaps I don’t like being there. Today the scene was different. My eyes were wide open. I was seeing through the people. I was a curious pedestrian, looking ahead. At first I moved so close being unknown but soon I maintained a distance of 10-15 meter. It was necessity at that time because nothing looked familiar and everything was trembling together with my heart.
It was the time when I saw you. Yes, I saw you. Just have a keen look. I saw you can be I was you as well by just a slight change of spell of ‘Saw’ and “Was” respectively. Isn’t it funny? Might not be for you all. I hope you grabbed it. I was walking as usual carrying a heavy head. I saw you there. You were with your friend who also knows me. You were in your black yet shining my world. The same bag and just measuring the distance of the road by your beautiful feet covered under a well suited sandal like it is only made to protect you from touching you the ground. Your feet may get dirty and scratched walking on the wrong floor. Please value yourself. You are precious to me and so is your health and happiness. If I don’t care for you then who else would do. Oh! Yeah I saw you. You were there. Your hair not combed again but roughly tightened like they are left to breathe and enjoy the fragrance coming out of you. The black magic was in front of me and I was getting captivated. The black magic was wrapped in black attire and the redolence also had the property of black magic. Thus, I thought it would be better to be far-flung. I have no idea that how my thought came into being thought today. It never worked. It was always biased. It was dominated whenever I had to use it. This is all my thought which turned you into my habit through a long process. First, I perceived you as a thought in my head and soon you were welcomed as feeling. That was not enough for you because then you entered into me as an attitude .No sooner you penetrated being my attitude, my spectacle I started watching the world through you. You worked as my looking glass, always guiding me. I couldn’t work without you. I was zilch. Accordingly, you turned to be my habit. You were my habit, my custom, my ritual, my routine and my concern. Hey did I say “You were”? Sorry, I meant to say you are and you will be.
I saw you. I saw you there with your friend. You were right ahead of me as usual. You were going away and I was following you but this time I didn’t stop you. I let you go away and kept watching you going away from me. I didn’t have courage to stop you. What I could do was just seeing you walking away. You got a call, didn’t you? You talked on the phone. And all of sudden you took a brake and stood outside a shop. When you turned around I thought your stunning eyes got the presence of me but thank god my heart got the normal beat. Your eyes failed to see me because they were never inquisitive for me. You moved from there. I was late. You already left and the distance between me and you were getting thicker as usual. I could have caught you but I inserted myself in the same shop just to query why you were there.
“
Hi, sister! Were those two girls in your shop?” I asked being gracious. “Whom you talking about?” she asked me instead. “Oh, yes! They were” she answered with a smile as if she knew everything and my intention too. I replied with the smile too because they were something more left for her to respond.
“And what they were looking for?” I put another query. She opened her mouth with another blush – “They were looking for a sandal”. It was again black. I thanked her and ran. But it was really late. She was lost in the crowd. I hoped that I would get another sight of her when we both would depart to our destination. My senses couldn’t sense her thereafter. I gave stare at almost everywhere and on every face but it was of no use.
She was gone. Perhaps she chose another way since she had another place to go. She had another end. We don’t walk the same way anymore. We don’t share the same lane now. We have turned out to be railway track, going miles together yet never meeting each other and never crossing. I’d love to cross the way you lie. I‘d be glad if I can cross the lines already created. I m well acquainted that there will be accident sooner or later and nothing will get hurt. My body will be in the same casing except my heart which may be dislodged once again. I am ready to be struck for the cause that I want to place my heart once more in the same rest.
I saw you. I followed you.
I awe you. I hallowed you.
I awe you. I hallowed you.
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